Well, we will be heading to the hospital shortly to have our little baby Chloe. My fluids are getting a little low so my Doctor recommended induction. Gotta admit, I'm real excited to meet my baby girl!!!
I've been getting "ready" for a while now. Took a fantastic trip to Vegas and Saint George with my girlies a couple weekends ago against doctors orders (shhh!), got a pedicure and haircut, planted my garden...tomatoes and all, hung up and organized all the pink flowery clothes, I'm ready right? HA!
I got to thinking as I was putting my little Cashy to bed last night and realized that our whole worlds are about to change. It made me remember the very first time that I saw my sweet boy after he was born. They held him up for me to see and I absolutely did not feel the way I expected to feel. I didn't have the immediate love for him that I'd heard so much about from other mommies. Cashy wasn't at all what I was expecting. He wasn't a chubby little blonde baby, instead he was a skinny, little 6lbs 9oz with HUMONGOUS eyes and a little old man wrinkly forehead. He looked absolutely terrified and to be honest, I was undecided on whether or not I thought he was cute. This is a horrible thing to say...don't judge me, but the first thought I had was that he looked like Gollum from Lord of the Rings because of his purplish tint and huge eyes. It was...weird.
My sister-in-law says this picture is "freaky." Sorry.
But then...they laid him on my chest and I felt him kick his little legs and move his tiny arms and I recognized the movement. It felt JUST like it did when he was inside me. He WAS my baby and at that moment, with that realization, I had the most overwhelming feeling of love come over me and I immediately thought he was the most beautiful thing I had ever laid eyes on. I couldn't get enough of him from then on. It just goes to show that parents have no idea whether or not their kids are cute. I knew for a fact that he was a little ugly, but I really couldn't tell anymore. A parent's love is an amazing thing. Oh...and for the record, don't ever tell me if you don't think my kids are cute, because I'll never know otherwise! Ignorance is bliss.
He had gotten a lot cuter by day two. :) But again, I wouldn't really know!
Well, we can't wait to meet Baby Chloe and love on her. Jake couldn't be more excited and I think Cashy even gets it. When he sees babies out and about, he points and says, "baby" in his cute little voice and when we ask him where the baby is, he points to my belly. So cute! Can't wait to see how he reacts to his baby sister. Here's a little video of Cashy loving on my belly. (He also gives a little shout out to Aunt Karen at the beginning of the video. She worked hard getting him to say her name...so I just thought I would point it out. Love it!)
K...Guess I'll have a baby now. Byeeee!